Right! On to the important stuff: Orgasms!

This entry will be primarily directed toward trans women, however it works for guys just the same, so dudes, you are welcome to give your feedback as well I say directed primarily at women because this technique has done SO much for my libido and self-confidence; something I hear a lot of trans women struggling with.

Orgasmic sensation was a big deal for me when I started on oestrogen. I really like having orgasms. They are great, yes? But oestrogen has a very big impact on one’s ability to climax, as I well learned. I have heard tales of woe from many a trans woman during the past two years, and I have decided to share the secret of climaxing without physical sensation (or enhancing physical sensation); or “energy orgasm”. Please note that your experience may differ, however, most human beings (if not all) are capable of what I am about to describe. I share this in order to hopefully ease your fears about loss of sensation or libido, whether pre-op, post-op, or non-op.

Before I start, I will give a brief explanation to help you understand what I am talking about. There is a difference between orgasm and ejaculation. In fact, they are completely separate processes! When penis-owners have sex, or masturbate, the ejaculation causes a very brief orgasm, unless facilitated by proper breathing (also, ejaculation may occur without orgasm). The following technique will assist you in reaching more powerful, and longer-lasting, orgasms with or without ejaculation or even physical sensation. Remember, the following is based on my own experience as a male-to-female transgender woman. Hormone replacement has likely played a big part in how I experience this sensation.

So, follow these easy steps, and in a gasped breath of ecstasy, you will thank the cosmos for bringing you this secret arcane knowledge! Well, okay, it’s not easy for everyone, especially people who used to have the potent combination of a penis and testosterone. I am here to tell you that it is possible. You do not need to be born a woman to achieve this state, as per common belief. With breathing alone, you can have an orgasm more powerful than you have ever imagined

The technique is commonly referred to as full wave breathing. It is circular breathing with a conscious control of your body’s energy. Now, if you were like me a year ago, you are likely thinking “Oh, that mystical rubbish? That’s not real.” Well, whether or not humans can manifest clean socks or speak to the departed, body energy is most certainly real, and conscious control over it is most certainly possible. I speak as a fellow skeptic when I say “Trust me! This works!” Like I said, learning full wave breathing can be difficult for some. If trying it on your own doesn’t work for you, then you can probably find someone in your area who teaches it.

Step 1: Prepare As you learn how to do this, you won’t need this step. When learning, though, it is easiest to sex up your environment. Lie on your back, prop your head up on a comfy pillow, make yourself totally comfortable and relaxed. I like to turn off the lights, light some candles, and get some good sexy music playing. I also really like black lights. A lot. They are sexy.

Step 2: Get In The Mood Half of what you are about to do is in your mind. The brain is the biggest sex organ, and after experiencing the energy orgasm, I now understand why they say that. It’s not like sex with a cock and testosterone typically is. You have to get in the mood; your body has to generate sexual energy. Move around, squirm in a sexy fashion, make sexy noises, picture yourself as the very image of sexual arousal. You are a sexy vixen! You also want to maintain these movements throughout; but make them subtle. You want to concentrate on your breathing, not any elaborate movements.

Step 3: Breathe This is the part where you let go of all inhibitions. Let go of all stress, all scepticism, and start to breathe in a circular motion. This means that you try to transition your inhaling and exhaling so that one flows into the other. Visualise a wheel turning, and your breathing following the wheel. You are one with the wheel!

Step 4: Squeeze Your Pee Muscle Actually, it’s called the pubococcygeus muscle. It’s the muscle you contract when you want to stop yourself from peeing. Contract it and hold it in every time you exhale; then let it go when you begin to inhale. Do that with every breath.

Step 5: Visualise Now visualise all that sexual energy you’ve generated sweeping up your body in waves as you breathe. I see it as a purple wave, but that’s just me. First, let it reach the base of your spine, then once you start to feel tingly there, visualise it going up to your abdomen, then your solar plexus, then your chest, your throat, then your brow. When I reach my brow, I feel the tingly sensation as a ring around my head, as though I were wearing a hat, but it’s tingly and warm. Finally, when you’re aroused enough, release all that energy upward through the crown of your head, aaaand…

Step 6: Orgasm! The sensation of an energy orgasm can be anywhere from very subtle to toe-curling glass-shattering mind-blowingly powerful. The amount of energy you get out of it, as with all things, equals the amount of energy you put into it. If you are familiar with meditation, this technique will come easily to you. To those who don’t meditate, it takes a little longer to learn. The most important thing is believing that it can be done. Take it from me; it can.

Of course, the technique and result will differ from person to person. This is evident in the myriad names and taught techniques for this phenomenon, whether full wave orgasm, energy orgasm, tantric orgasm, fire breath orgasm… and the list goes on. It took me nearly a month of trying this every other night before I finally did it, but I’ve heard of others achieving an amazing result on the first try. The technique reportedly also not only works for men, but actually gives them more endurance to boot!

Personally, I found that my experience was much like how a female orgasm is typically described. They are less physically stimulating, but much more emotionally satisfying. It’s not about focusing on the genitals, but about absorbing the environment around you.

I would love to hear others’ experiences with orgasmic breathing, and if/how it has helped you; especially if this tutorial helped you/hindered you.

There you are! Have fun, kittens Hope this is useful to you.

Tris

Sometimes the most profound changes to one’s sensation and libido occur right at the start of transition. These changes are primarily psychological at this stage. This is a stage of liberation, where we become more free to be ourselves, and to express ourselves accordingly. Consequently, your sexuality will change accordingly. At this stage, one of two things often happens: either you will feel more comfortable with your sexuality as you learn ways to express your gender in a more comfortable manner, or you will feel less comfortable with your sexuality as you become hyper-aware of the dysphoria surrounding your body. In both these cases, the libido is affected profoundly, and accordingly.

The second stage comes with the introduction of hormones. Again, there are two directions this can go in: either the libido can go up, or it can go down. Luckily, sensation is typically more regular here. For both men an women, sensation tends to increase, though in different ways. Men become more sensitive, especially at the clitoris. At this stage, the clitoris can also grow, up to half an inch in length, and, perhaps not suprisingly, begins to behave much like a penis. It’s been reported that activities such as riding bikes or vehicles can create a buzzing sensation in the clitoris for men who are starting testosterone.

For women, estrogen helps soften the skin, and as a result, the skin becomes much more sensitive as well. This is often accompanied by decreased sensation in the penis, and a decrease in the strength and frequency of erections. With the changes in skin sensation, often the libido will shift, placing a higher emphasis on receiving sensation throughout the body, and less focus on penile stimulation. With breast growth, the nipples can get very sensitive as well. One of the authors noticed that after about 6 months on estrogen,, she almost required breast stimulation in order to orgasm!

Finally, SRS can have a massive impact on both libido and sensation. This is a time where both the genitals have been changed significantly, and the body also has an abrupt change in the hormones it naturally produces. No longer are estrogen, testosterone and progesterone all competing with each other for similar receptors. Due to these big changes to your body, the effects are wildly unpredictable. Some people experience a heightened sensation as nerves recover, and for some, the nerves don’t recover as well, so sensation can be reduced. Likewise, the change in hormones can raise or lower libido, or even simply change the nature of it, without doing either. However, one thing that does generally happen is an immediate lowering of libido as the body repairs itself after surgery. This can last up to a year or longer, though libido does generally return to a stable level over time. Women who have SRS can generally expect to wait up to a year before their first orgasm, while men who have had phalloplasties can often expect lowered sensation and difficulty with getting erections.

Question: What changes in your libido and/or sensation have you experienced during your transition?

I know what you might be thinking.

“What makes you such an expert? How do you know there are a lot of trans people having cyber sex, if they’re so stealth while online?”

Well, I’m an expert for several reasons. One, because I have spent a lot of time in sex groups online. Two, because I know a lot of trans people. And three, when one’s sexuality is socially repressed, where else do you go? Now, I rarely advertise my trans status in online sex spaces, because I happen to detest my male genitals, and do not want to be fetishised for them. On the other hand, I’m not stealth either, and will disclose it freely if the topic should arise. And does it ever arise! For some elusive secret reason, discussions of gender and identity are commonplace in internet sex circles (not to be confused with circle sex, which, incidentally, is also great). When I mention my own gender identity, the most common response is a casual acknowledgement followed by well-intended questions. At the least, this alone should give you some indication as to how many people are at least curious about gender variance.

The amount of gender variance visible to the naked eye should be another indicator of how widely we are spread, even if not all of us label ourselves transgender. This is especially true in the popular virtual world simulation Second Life.

“Wait, you mean the video game?”

Well yes, but no. There are games within Second Life, but in and of itself, it is certainly not a game. People interact, create, buy, sell, travel, explore, build, and yes, even fuck each other inside of this video game-esque virtual environment. It even has a real working economy, which saw $144 million US dollars travel through in Q2 2009 alone. It also has real opposition. Interestingly, the loudest opposition to sex-positive virtual space is the religious right. There are even missionary groups who wonder the virtual streets daily, bringing the word to the fuzzy-wuzzies in sinful cyber-land.

“Wait a sec. The religious right? How did the church crowd come to know of our activities there?”

Hmmm…

“But why bother with a virtual life, when you can do all that stuff in the real world? You’re a lazy ninny, and you smell of pizza.”

Hey, who doesn’t like pizza? Actually, the reason that over 7 million people have second life accounts is, at it’s very core, the inherent freedom of identity. From clothing style, to social behaviour, to hobbies, to the way we have sex, Second Life offers a place where literally millions of people have felt comfortable being the true selves that real life society does not accept.

“Wow! Seems like my gender dysphoria is similar to the restrictions a lot of people feel!”

Yes, and our visibility due to our physical change, and our refusal to conform to society’s comfort level, make it even harder for us to cope. That and, like other visible deviants, we have a stigma that society has attached to us. This stigma is brutal and merciless. It tells us we are not wanted; that we are inferior. It is little wonder that an estimated 31% of trans people commit suicide, and over 50% have attempted suicide before the age of 20. That makes me a sad bunny.

“I love bunnies! I would just love to hope around in a bunny suit all day! But I don’t, of course. That would be silly.”

Many people have aspects of their identity which they hide because society at large finds it silly, awkward, or even repulsive. Transsexuals are people who have gone through great lengths and hardships, suffering public humiliation and rejection, to be their true selves. You know what? That makes me a proud bunny! To all the partners of trans people: praise your special someone for their amazing courage and genuine spirit. Do it now!

^_^

Okay… back to sex.

“Jeez, you’re a horny one, ain’t ya?”

Well, I may be in bed with the topic, but it’s why we’re here, isn’t it? So now that we’ve established why trans-folk hang out and have sex online, lets move ahead for the juicy details (pun intended!), and go on to the what. What do we do? What do we fantasise about? What are our fetishes? What kind of virtual partners do we look for? What kind of online environments attract us? Virtual sex is every bit as diverse as physical sex, if not more so. Any stretch of the imagination is possible.

Fact is, we deserve to be able to participate in and talk about sex without being invalidated or marginalised, the cyber kind included. No, sex is not the only reason we transitioned, but for many of us, it’s a big one. Cis people can love their parts but we can’t? I’m having none of it.

So tell us, how do you like to get e-down?

Others find a way around it. The human imagination is a wonderful problem solving tool. Indeed nothing could get solved without it. And for a great time in bed, imagination is essential. This is true for trans and cis people alike. For trans people, however, imagination can also break down those barriers. Gay and lesbian people have used their imagination for centuries to find creative ways to have sex. We can use these techniques as well, but since we also have to deal with the mental block surrounding our genitals, we need to take that imagination one step further to reframe our mindset about how we view our genitals.

One easy way to do this is to shift your language. As Tobi Hill-Meyer points out in As Different As The Next Girl, we can prefer our parts to be referred to by different names, often names that correspond to the genitalia we feel we should have. I’ve often referred to my penis as “a big clit.” Likewise we can shift other aspects of our sexual language to suit our gender identities. A good example of this would be for a pre-op trans girl to refer to her arousal as “getting wet,” even though there’s no actual lubrication involved.

Fantasy is another area which a trans person can utilize to overcome mental barriers to sex. Most people, at one time or another, have closed their eyes during sex and/or while masturbating, to imagine themselves in a completely different scenario. Sometimes we imagine being with a different partner, sometimes we use fantasy to role-play in our minds. Sometimes we fantasize about having sex in a different environment. Quite often, even though the fantasy only plays out in our mind, we get so turned on by it that it ends up feeling  almost real to us. Trans people can utilize this technique, to shift our bodies in the mind’s eye, to match our personal sense of how our bodies should be configured. This frequently results in odd sensations such as “phantom genitalia,” where we feel the sensation of having the genitalia we desire, even though it doesn’t exist in reality yet. It’s a powerful sensation that can have a profoundly positive effect on our ability to enjoy sex.

When done together with a partner, this can be especially exciting. I’ve heard of cases where both partners shared in the fantasy, enjoying it together, resulting in a cissexual partner experiencing the phantom genitalia phenomenon as well. It doesn’t happen all the time, of course, but when it does, the cissexual partner has the potential to feel deeply connected to their trans partner.

Of course, all of this needs to be taken with a grain of salt. Sometimes the feeling of dysphoria is just too great for a trans person to feel comfortable using any of these techniques. The best way to handle this is to leave the part of the body causing the dysphoria alone, and concentrate on other ways of pleasuring your partner. Conversely, a non-op trans person may not feel the need to use any of these techniques, as many are happy with their birth genitals. While it is true that some cisgender partners can share in the experience, for others it can be very threatening to them, or even disruptive. If you are a cisgender person and are just starting to get to know a trans person on an intimate level, you may not be aware of what techniques your partner employs. In this situation, it’s essential to talk to your trans partner to understand what you can do to help them, and also to understand what your partners boundaries are.

Question: What techniques do you use to help yourself or your partner to overcome feelings of dysphoria during sex?

It is for precisely this reason that we are creating this website (and eventually, publishing our book). It is our hope that for anyone who doesn’t understand much about transgenderism, that we can help you understand a little bit about how trans peoples’ sexualities operate. We can debunk the myths about trans sexualities by addressing them and by telling the public the truth. The key thing to understand here is that sexuality is something that exists in all of us, even people who are asexual. Without it, a key component of what makes us human is lost.

The idea that trans people are ‘perverts’ is a misinformed, unintelligent idea that panders to those who would wish to suppress our natural sexualities. The word is grossly misused. Instead of being used to describe sexual inclinations that harm, it has been used by many (particularly religious fundamentalists) to describe anything remotely sexual in nature that they deem disgusting. However, the sexual behaviour of a typical trans person is no more harmful than the sexual behaviour of a typical straight person, or a typical gay person. In fact, by exploring the diverse nature of the trans community (and thus trans sexuality), it is our hope to show you that there really is no such thing as ‘typical’, when talking about people’s sexualities, whether trans or not.

There are many sex guides out there, just go to your local sex toy shop to find them. But there hasn’t been any comprehensive resources dealing specifically with sex and sexuality issues for trans people up to now. There needs to be one. Sex and sexuality is complicated enough for cisgender people. When one transitions, their sexuality comes along for the ride, and transitions along with the individual. This can be very difficult for someone to navigate. This is the problem we’re hoping to solve. We are writing a practical guide to navigating the sex and sexuality issues faced by trans people and their partners. It needs to be frank, sex-positive, and affirming of readers’ identities.

We wish we had something like this to read during our own transitions!

Question: How does sexuality impact your motivation to transition?